27 November 2016
I feel I am generally upbeat whilst sharing the truth of what living with mental illness is really like. However, I do feel that sometimes I don't share the extent of my mental health with you all as my blog is a place of support and comfort. However, I am human and I do get bad days just like you.
I have been battling my mental illness from about the age of 8, and it hasn't been easy. I'm sure like the rest of you reading this you have also felt this way - I have had suicidal thoughts, attempts, been depressed and had crippling anxiety and I know I'm not alone. I'm not going to say that all of my journey has produced positives either. It has been the hardest and most challenging thing to deal with in my life so far and many a time I have run out of energy and hope to carry on. I have had days of crying and self-harm, and staying in bed and not seeing the point in anything. I'll be honest in saying that, my mental illness can and has been like hell and I know I'm not the only one.
I never tend to mention this because I feel it doesn't always help others to hear the rawness of the situation. But I am a person who deals with mental illness on a daily basis, and to this day and at the age of 21, I still battle anxiety and depression. Perhaps not to the scale I used to, but of course circumstances and situations can trigger it off. I am still dealing with it every day, and I haven't completely recovered yet, but I am getting there.
I am human just like you and I am still here. I have been through it, and I am still alive and so can you. I am just another person battling their mental illness to help others and I know that you have the strength to keep going.
I hope this hasn't been too much for you all as I know it's quite different!
20 November 2016
I thought I'd take this week as an opportunity for you to read my other work on mental illness besides my own blog.
The link below will send you to a link that contains all of my guest posts and work including writing for Mind charity, Time to Change and Relate charity. You can read all of these, here.
I hope you all enjoy.
See you all next week!
13 November 2016
How many times have you been depressed for so long that you don't remember what it's like to be happy? But when you do finally start to feel better I find so many questions and thoughts running through my head.
"Life really is beautiful!"
"I missed out on so much"
"I'm waisting my time"
"Was it all in my head?"
"Could I have recovered quicker?"
I want to reassure you that these thoughts and questions are completely normal. I often feel guilt for what I believe my depression does to me, but I know that what I am dealing with is an illness and it is completely real. And I am not alone! 1 in 3 people are dealing with mental illness in any one year, which is at the end of the day, a third of the population. You're not alone in feeling the way you do and thinking this way. At the end of the day, this is something that I have to cope with and I cannot just make it disappear and the sooner I realise this, the better I can find ways to deal with it and to recover quickly. The depression and anxiety I have faced, have taught many things, alongside the trauma it causes. What I was once told, is that anxiety and depression does not rob you. You can do it. I strongly believe that although some people don't experience mental illness to the extent that perhaps you and I do, it doesn't mean others aren't struggling in other ways. It gives you strength if anything, whether it's nasty or nice, to keep moving forward.
As always, coming back from the brink shows great strength. It may not be fair, or easy, but you can do it.