Trigger warning: mention of suicide and self harm.
Otherwise known as the invisible illness, something that cannot be seen and therefore cannot be believed, mental illness is the secret in disguise.
It is the thing that people are beginning to talk about, but still only one person really understands and that person is, you.
When sitting in a classroom or at a desk at work, you're hiding the bandage on your wrist covered by your long sleeves. No one would know what happened in your bedroom half an hour earlier with that bright smile on your face.
An awkward joke of suicide and people would say 'of course you would've mentioned a suicide attempt because no one would turn up to work the next day having tried to jump off a chair with a dressing gown rope around their neck at 10:59pm the night before.'Because someone who is still sending text messages and picking up your calls can put as many emoticons as they like and filtered pictures on instagram, to build a false picture.
It's trying to describe exactly what it is like to live with mental illness and there not being words to encompass it.
It's everyone talking hot air because it's the latest topic and trend, but some don't mean anything by it. But some are also making massive positive change.
It's feeling completely detached in a room full of people and acomplishing things that others already have and feeling as if you've had to climb a mountain to get there and they've only had to walk up a hill. It's worth so much more.
People saying that there is nothing to be depressed about and life could be so much worse...yes I know. Of course I choose to have moments of pain.
It's...invisible. It's hidden. But the symptoms are real and you see them every day.
Ask, talk and help until you believe, because it is very much believable when they are no longer here.
It's everyone talking hot air because it's the latest topic and trend, but some don't mean anything by it. But some are also making massive positive change.
It's feeling completely detached in a room full of people and acomplishing things that others already have and feeling as if you've had to climb a mountain to get there and they've only had to walk up a hill. It's worth so much more.
People saying that there is nothing to be depressed about and life could be so much worse...yes I know. Of course I choose to have moments of pain.
It's...invisible. It's hidden. But the symptoms are real and you see them every day.
Ask, talk and help until you believe, because it is very much believable when they are no longer here.
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