Anxiety poetry

Here is a poem from a reader:

Definition 

“What's wrong with you?” they say,

“Can't you calm down for just a moment,

Take a deep breath--

Slow down,

Get centered and

Relax.

Stop being so damn negative,

What's the worry,

What's the hurry?

You can't solve every problem,

Let it go--

Hey not so fast.

Maybe, yes just maybe

If you stopped being so damn frightened

Well then maybe for a moment 

All those fears would dissipate,

If you just stopped your overthinking 

Your hypotheticals,

Possibilities,

If you let life flow all around you

You'd have that peace you say you crave.”

But they are wrong.  

Anxiety isn't nervousness.

Anxiety isn't cowardice.

Anxiety is a call to those 

Whose eyes are open to the fight. 

It is a certain sensitivity

An alertness;

A war machine never idle

There’s a buzzing below the surface, 

There is no calm before this storm. 

It is the constant sentinel

Vigilant in clash with 

Paralysis,

There is no honor, 

No heroism in this struggle

Whose burden countermands reward.

It is not the soldier’s nature to relax.

It is an instinct,

It is concern for you, for me, for others,

It is a special steadfast mutiny

When

Psyche fights the soul.

You say it is a weakness.

You subject me to societal court martial,

Though you cavalierly create conflicts

You say I am afraid.

But those consummate in combat,

Introspective and insightful,

True veterans of life’s battles

Know,

It's fear defines the brave.

Josh Mayesh

Puppies!

Today I am publishing something a bit different. It's national dog week and for me, animals are a great help for reducing anxiety. Here's a post by puppyspot. 

If you’ve ever pet a dog before you know the instant calming effect that comes over you. It feels like that dog is specifically there to see you and they know just what kind of attention you need to feel better. Well what if I told you this wasn’t just a feeling, but that dogs are actually improving your health. That’s right, aside from being ridiculously adorable, dogs have evolved to become acutely attuned to humans behaviors and emotions. As a result, this means positive benefits to our mental, physical and spiritual health. So let’s break this down.

            Mental Health Benefits:

·       Reduce anxiety and depression

·       Higher self-esteem

·       Reduce feelings of isolation and loneliness

·       Improve emotional and social development

These benefits all stem from the companionship dogs offer. As human beings, companionship can help prevent illness and even add years to our lives. While the basic act of caring for another living thing can help make you feel needed, distracting your mind away from the tribulations going on in your head.

                        Physical Health Benefits:

·       Boost immune system

·       Increase oxytocin levels and lower cortisol

·       Increase exercise frequency

·       Lower blood pressure and cholesterol

·       Reduce risk of cardiovascular disease

Of course having a dog means increased exercise as dogs require daily walks. These walks, runs, and hikes not only keep you and your pup fit and healthy, but also send off mood boosting endorphins through your system. So win, win.

This graphic by PuppySpot goes into further detail on these benefits, as well as the incredible abilities dogs can be trained on. Including identifying seizures and certain types of cancers in humans.

Pretty impressive right? Well they don’t call dogs “man’s best friend” for nothing! Speaking of which, if you’re on the hunt for your new furry bff make sure you take into consideration which breed fits best with your lifestyle. Picking out your perfect puppy is an awesome experience, but it’s important to keep in mind your needs and theirs. Things like yard size, other pets in the house, allergies, kids and budget should all be considered. Or if you’re not quite ready for a pup of your own, check out your local shelters looking for volunteers or the good dog park. Fortunately a friendly pup is never to hard to find!

Why am I anonymous?

I have been writing this blog anonymously for over four years and I do often think about revealing a picture of myself, but I can't just yet. I have absolutely no problem in talking about my mental illness. I have told employers, the whole internet and people who want to know. Of course, I don't just go up to people and tell them but only if they ask or if it were to come up in conversation. The depth of detail that I go into also depends on the circumstances. However even after four years of sharing my journey with the world, I still haven't shared a picture of myself or a youtube video. This is not because I am ashamed of my illness - far from it. It is because of my planned future job in which I am disclosing my mental health and have done in work experience in the field. The job I am applying for cannot be associated with being known and recognised by many people. Perhaps if I am given the all clear to do this, I would be more than happy to do so but until that point, in spite of my dream career and giving it all that I've got I will have to remain anonymous for now. I'm hoping the big reveal won't be too far away!

Amy Xx